I have Erin, a long standing and dear friend, the first person I said I love you to, and have never questioned that love EVER since I said it the first time. Erin showed me what a friend could be. What a friend SHOULD be. She has been so wonderful to me. And on top of all that, she is an amazing writer and artist, especially writer. One of my favorites and an inspiration to my writing.
I have Angel, a big sister who has served as mentor, role model, idol, and dear friend for... how long is it? A couple years at the very least... Angel has always, ALWAYS been someone I really look up to, and still do, probably always will. She has always been so patient and loving with me, and has always been a huge inspiration. She has always, in her art and writing and everything she does, shown me things about myself, and things I want in my life... not to say I want to be exactly like her, although to be honest there were times inthe past that I did, but I want to be my own person now, she just helps inspire and bring out who that person that I want to be and am, is.
Through Angel I came to know Beth, another older person who I came to look up to. She has always been there for me to talk to and always been willing to give honest advice, advice that has helped me. On top of that, she's just this super spiffy, wonderful person who I am so happy to call one of my very best friends.
Then there is Jenna, who I came to love like a little sister. This beautiful, wonderful girl who reminds me SO MUCH of me when I was younger. I want so much to do everything I can to help her through hard times, to help her grow. She is a wonderful, beautiful, amazingly talented girl and I know she will grow up to be a wonderful, beautiful, amazingly talented woman. Her talent absolutely blows me away. It makes me happy when I have helped her in some way. On top of all that, she is a very sweet and wonderful friend.
There is Hillary, this amazing girl who is beyond description. Well really all these people have so much more to them than words can possibly say, but one of the greatest things about hillary is that she cannot really be described. She is, HILLARY, and Hillary is great. I'm just BURSTING with adoration everytime I talk to her, and it makes me feel so wonderful to think that I am important to her in some way. The more I got to know her the more I absolutely adored her. I love her art and I love her characters and I love her.
And there is Lisa. My lovely Lisa. This gorgeous girl across the ocean. I want so much to show her how beautiful, wonderful and talented she is. I want so much for her to be happy. And then, I just love her. So much. The more I talk to her, the more connected to her I feel. The more I feel I could just babble to her about anything and everything without fear. The more I hope she knows she can trust me, the more I hope she knows she can talk to me about anything and everything too, because I so want to be here for her. I love her and she loves me and that makes me so happy.
And then I have so many other wonderful friends... like Anna and Amanda and Jenn and Jolyn and Foxy and Luve... and I am still making more...
And then, there is Travis. I never, EVER thought in a million years that I would find someone like him. It is to him that I owe so many of the wonderful friends I have now. It is to him that I owe all the confidence and self esteem I've gained. Because of him, I can feel beautiful. Because of him, I can feel worth while. Because of him, I can love myself. Because of him, I continue to grow in confidence and self esteem, I have discovered so much about who I am and I continue to learn more. He makes me feel safe. He makes me believe in things. He makes the world seem wonderful no matter WHAT is happening otherwise. He is so much to me. He is everything. He is a part of me and he is this wonderful other person. He never fails to overwhelm me with his patience, understanding, and unending, unconditional, infinate love and adoration.
To all these people, thank you. Thank you so very much. Thank you for all that you have done for me and all you continue to do. Thank you for being your wonderful, beautiful selves. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for existing.
You never fail to make my life wonderful. I truly believe I am the luckiest person alive to have you all in my life.
And you Mallin. Thank you for all of this. Thank you so much.
I love you all.